Emotional..
Sensitive..
A train wreck..
Today, my best friend paid a visit..
And I can’t sleep..
Nor I want to awake..
Forlorn.. Misunderstood..
And the tears just keep flowing..
Empty.. That empty space..
Like a hole with a gap that no one knows whom or how..
In a room full of people, feeling empty still..
Looking back at the past, looking at old love..
I left them all but why am I still not happy?
Why is there so many questions and still no answer..
I laid on the floor feeling worthless..
Asking if someone somewhere could save me..
What if I am in a coma?
Will anyone miss me? Remember me?
Hold my hand?
What if I left the world to be rotten on the ground as a
corpse?
Will anyone pray for me?
Will anyone cry knowing I am no longer there?
Will anyone remember that I exist?
I spent my days now..
Fulfilling goals to keep myself busy..
As if this material things satisfy my inner needs..
But they don’t and they won’t..
I remembered old faces I called friends..
Can I walk on them and will they recognize me?
A friend or an acquaintance?
I ignored people because it's easy..
Being on my own is easy..
Spending days on bed..
Sleeping..
Look at the sky..
Still something is missing..
And when the sheer of happiness came..
Cover by the cloud of sadness..
I sit on my praying mat..
With dua's and prayers..
I believe and I know and I understand..
These are my 'Qada' and 'Qadar'..
Still that feeling I could not explain is still there..
Just controllable now..
