DEAR EX.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY

Happy birthday..

I remember.. I know you will not read this or bother..

I can’t show any sign of weakness to anyone..

A year ago, I decided to solo travel from Phi-phi to Koh Lanta then to Phuket.

Just to forget you..

I even baked you that brownie. Even when my heart is broken, i still wanna make you happy..

I dunno how you feel this year..

Of course, i would love to surprise you..

But i am no longer part of your life..

You have Piqah and other people you care about..

I hope they treat you right..

Once a person broke your heart, you automatically build up this huge wall..

With sharp fences.. I can’t allow myself to come in again..

I have close that door and you already locked me out of your life..

And i.. i end up hating you.. i built my ego because you wounded my heart..

I wish i could forgive you and Piqah.. maybe someday but not today..

I remember both of your birthdays.. Since you both hurt me.. i just dun bother to show or wish..

A year gone by.. But it seems yesterday, you left me.. telling me you no longer felt the same way.. 

i miss u assholes but i get it,, you dun love me.. you never have feelings.. and i must keep reminding myself that you are gone..

A year goes by..

But i am still here..

Unable to give my wounded heart to anyone..

Whenever i tried to be happy, you appear..

And I got so angryand yes, i ended up crying..

For you it was a game of boredom..

To me, you were the future i seek..

Now.. i show a fake face so the world does not question or hurt you..

Let it be me.. always me who loves you more than anyone could..

And you would say.. why is she so obsessing over me..

I am not gonna explain.. it’s a secret between me and HIM..may Allah ease our journey.. amin..