PERFECTLY UNMARRIED

What i’m about to write might insult married couples but i hope they will not take any offenses..

I realized the kinda man i rather spend my life with..

But in actual truth, i am trully happy not being married..

I mean i do have days i wish and dream of being married..

Used to have..

These days, i love the fact that i can focus on my career..

Go on trips..

Meet new people..

Experience new things..

To focus on achieving my goals and visions..

I understand now that Allah really does has bigger plans..

I was not meant with the previous guys because they are not the right man for me..

I went diving and i realized that it takes somethings to really helpnyou heal..

New faces to bring joy and fix your scars and wounds..

Surrounded by gorgeous males..

Being taking care of..

Weird but actually amusing..

I am in love with the place and the people..

Thank you so much amazing people in Perhentian..

You helped me healed and gained happiness and smiles through ky cacation days..

For once, i only think about breathing for me..

Living for me..

And here i am at home, missing everyone and the sea..

Not every good things last..

I get that..

I can accept the fact..

But i will strive more happiness coming forward..

Coz i now valued myself highly..

I deserved this happiness..

I want to stay positively happy..

Spreading happiness..

And i will keep doing extreme things that makes me alive..

Because that adrenaline rush makes me feel more alive than any feeling in the world..

And i finally able to smile and laugh again with people i truly feel like a family..

For now, dun tell me i need to get marry or settle down..

I dun see myself being part of another person’s life..

I either get too attached or wounded..

I dun think having a husband will bring me the greatest joy..

Being marry brings out obligation..

Following orders..

I can follow but i’m not sure i am able to find the right man to lead..

Coz the men i used to want are either taken or married..

Or used me..

This bubble is my safety net..

I am not ready to get out of it..

I am happy.. happy unmarried.. perfectly unmarried..